No more Pretending

I have to block my heart, because u see understand me is truely love me. I feel alone in the world to have one to share your trials nd tribulation makes love worth  gamboling. But gamboling has nver been my thing. 'My intervoice tells me to hind away maybe a season or a something will come were i can let u in. But it's not time yet i must stay hidding untill u grown to the man i need. Untill that day coms i will remain hidding. Sheltering myself from pain , hurt, rejection, disappointment and most of from the mister u have become reminding me of my past ever unsuccessful relationship i have had. U represent that pain.  U are the gloomy night that shadows over my night u are the mean spirited demon that fight daily u are the doubt in my head   U now hold a bad taste in my mouth. U are not the sparkle in my eye the joy to my song the sunshine to my sorrows. U are him the evil one in the flesh. U are not him yu are a arrigent self obsorbed jerk. Who only thinks of himself uncapable of being transparent. U are wicked